Happy Easter!

God has risen! We’re all saved! 

Happy Easter people!

This entry will be messy with all the randomness I’d like to write down. First of all, this is probably the first time I am telling in this blog that I am in a relationship and I am super happy! The BF and I have been official for nearly two years now, braving the distance, time difference, and language barrier. Though we seemed to take it in quite cushy, it’s not all an easy feat.  I’ll be dedicating an entry specifically about us, next time. 🙂

In line with now, my love life, I am also learning the BF’s native language – Deutsch ( German ) and this has been causing me both frustration and inspiration. Imagine, the contradiction?! It’s inspiring because I never thought I’ll ever dare to learn a 3rd language and be really serious ( sometimes trying too hard and yet learning still quite not enough ) about it. Frustrating, because it is one of the craziest vernacular to get your older brain and tongue to adapt with. I mean, maybe if I was younger and I have been exposed to the language earlier, it wouldn’t feel so different. In which, again, from another perspective can be inspiring too,  because knowing you’re learning, no matter how dreadfully slow and tiny the progression is, it is an achievement itself, or at least, it is for me.

There’s been a lot of “adulting” stuff I’ve been working on recently, plus doing more OT at work, to hopefully increase my funds to cover my growing expenditures too, keeps me mostly occupied. Sounds so mature? haha!

I know I’ve said this every time, but I wish to spend more here writing often.

Easter is always igniting fresh start! May every day of our lives sparks a new beginning that excites us all and keeps on living always in God’s lead of great hope and love!



What Do You Think?

halo! i’ve been wanting to go back to this page for the usual expression of my “thought farts”, but at the same time, i’m feeling bit of a pressure to do it regularly and make it more worthwhile, considering how open this platform is, would make me vulnerable to the scrutiny of the world wide web. (like i have tons of followers? or does anyone read this other than myself, whenever i feel extra self conscious how bad my grammar is/was/always)

so where/how do i begin, again?

how do i feel about the world today? at least the world i know, based on how it’s presented to me every day?

for sure, my day to day life, isn’t as exciting as most people would seize theirs, but who knows, by sharing my mundane alternations, once in a while, would make me hit some good thoughts to ponder.

i will try to revive this page and hopefully to keep it active on a regular basis.

if you happen to be reading this, please share your thoughts/suggestions. i could also use a little dare, by asking me what to write and share my opinions/ and probably my lack of knowledge about? i’d love you to spark me with ideas! help out my idle brain to work more creatively.


p.s. i really missed doing this! 🙂


In Between Gigi and Mary

I am still that girl… who wouldnt exactly get “the rules” and will remain clueless if not dumb about dating.

The tell tales of subtle misfits. It ‘s getting tiring and draining my already depreciating optimism. You wanna feel okay about it, because at least it didnt consumed much of your time, but you’re also back to zero from almost reaching a quarter to counting one.

Oh yeah… patience, tell me about it again and again, like I’ve never heard it 2 decades back.

You wanna reassure yourself by telling what they’re missing, but is that really the case?

Someone told me, “You have to put youself out there.”  Must I take a braver(desperate) move to wear a “Sale” sign before i’m gone for salvaging?

Well, if you’ve watched “He’s Just Not That Into You”, you’d probably agree, I am both Gigi and Mary combined.


Hello There!!!

Oh yes! Surprisingly, i haven’t forgotten my password after not checking this page for the longest time. I so wanna go back to  using this as an outlet… and hopefully, I get to write as authentic, carefree and genuinely honest as possible, not minding too much about the prejudices and overanalyzing my thoughts (really?) which often ends up not being able to write anything, if not too vague, that I myself can’t decipher what I’ve been meaning to say.

Of course, i’ll be having my terrible grammar horror and lapses, but who cares? I guess, I’ve come to this age where I can just shrug off whatever?! Or at least pretend as if I didn’t feel a twinge and move on.

I came across with this sign which somehow translate my current state of mind :


This should work for my comeback! Cheers to us, bitch!  😉

What’s Your Claim Of Entitlement?

I kept thinking about this for a time… if people only want a sense of belongingness, why is there such a clamor over titles? Is that how we should classify and define a person? Do we all achieve the supremacy with such? When it is limited and always never gonna be enough…

I’m untitled but i have faith with the infinite. Boundless and free.


Keep Coming Back

This has been the longest time I have not posted anything here… I remember the first time I decided to try blogging, I didn’t care much whether it was worthwhile to post it, i just do it because at that time, expressing myself through writing bluntly was kind of liberating… but now, I am getting more conscious… perhaps mindful? Considering the grammarnazis lurking around the cyber world can also be some bunch of  helluva-kind cruel critics, not to add the contradicting ideals I may come to tap on. Of course, I know very well I’m just another trying-hard (work in progress) writer(?)/blogger(?) and ordinary human who can get sensitive at times. Although I haven’t really come across with any nasty remarks yet, but those aren’t avoidable.

I’m hoping to get some power-ups for this page to keep it active again.

Perhaps, ageing makes an individual more susceptible to complexities and to overthinking that I’m missing the “carefree” version of me.